Friday, June 1, 2012

Dead Air

I apologize for the radio silence.

I've been getting emails from worried readers, so I thought that I should post a quick update to let you all know that I'm alive and well.  Nothing bad is happening.  I haven't quit blogging.  In fact, I have a dozen story ideas bubbling away in the back of my mind.

I just haven't been feeling very funny lately.

The truth is that I'm going through a bit of an existentialist crisis.  I've come to the uncomfortable realization that - despite being happy in my day-to-day life - I'm not really passionate about anything bigger.  It's a strange thing to realize.  I always figured that I would change the world somehow, but all I really want to do is walk the dog and read books and hang out with my husband and surf the net. 

I dropped out of the blogosphere for a little while to ponder the meaning of life.

But I'll be back soon.

In the meantime, I made you a wheelbarrow:

I'm not sure why you would want a picture of a clay wheelbarrow.  Maybe you can turn it into some kind of a metaphor.

(And also, I lost the vacuum cleaner.  I just walked through my entire house twice, but still haven't found it.  My house is not all that big.  It's pretty organized right now, so it's not like there are piles of clutter behind which a vacuum cleaner could hide.  How exactly does one lose a vacuum cleaner?  I'm baffled.)

Question for all of my lovely readers: besides your family, are you passionate about anything?

138 comments:

  1. I can relate----I sometimes think I am passionate about things (well, food), and then other times I think I just picked that to focus on because I'm really not passionate about anything at all. Except, the little things you mentioned.
    I can see where my work helps people, but lots of times I just feel like a big faker.
    Pondering is good, albeit often confusing.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I guess we all feel like big fakers sometimes. You definitely SEEM passionate about food, and I do think that your work helps people...so I think you picked the right thing!

      Delete
  2. It turns out, I am passionate about the ukulele. Who would have thought? The uke will change the world.

    I, too, am in a blog funk. I keep expecting too much from myself, and then putting out half-assed posts, and then feeling guilty that I didn't try harder.

    I think I just need a change. Or to be unemployed. Maybe in Hawaii. Just me and my uke and my boyfriend and my five cats and a beach... Sounds relaxing, right?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oh yeah, and I've lost a pair of pants. PANTS! WTF is up with that? Seriuosly, it isn't like I take them places without them being ON MY BODY. Sheesh. Maybe there are trolls stealing our shit.

      Delete
    2. Well, at least there's the possibility of packing a pair of pants for a weekend trip. So they might be in a bag somewhere. At least that makes more sense than a vaccuum. You know...I think I'd be much more ok with having no purpose to life if i were living on a beach somewhere! Your logic makes sense to me.

      Delete
  3. That wheelbarrow really brings out the green in your eyes.
    You know what, I believe there are more people out there who just live and don't have another passion. Perhaps your passion is just waiting around the corner.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You know, I think you're right. Maybe living is more than enough.

      Delete
  4. Life is like a pile of poop and a pile of ice cream. Your job is to keep the wooden spoon in the ice cream.

    I wish I could get Ideas that simply. I'm working on one on education and one on movie star news.

    Can't say I've ever lost a vacuum. I've lost everything else though.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Ha! Thanks for the metaphor. I'll keep that one in mind.

      Delete
  5. Metaphors... Um... You want to shape your own destiny (like clay) to do something useful and make your life full (like a wheelbarrow in use). How's that sound? xD

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. It works. Let's pretend that's what I was going for. Ha!

      Delete
  6. Glad to see that you're back! I'm also blog funking over here... Whenever I get back from traveling I go into a bit of a rut, for whatever reason. Didn't help that I was sick for over a week. Recycled air on the plane, I'm sure.

    I feel like I'm maybe passionate about too much. Nature, gardening, travel, education, specifically environmental education, food, and art. Trying desperately to rekindle my passion for art, but meeting so much resistance re: fear of failure/criticism (or perhaps fear of success?). I need to switch off the part of my brain that gives a crap what other people think and just do art for art's sake, you know?

    I think the trick is to try new things occasionally and maybe you'll find something. If not, there's nothing wrong with reading books and walking the dog and hanging out with your husband! (Or surfing the net, although I do that too much).

    Please write a story about losing your vacuum.

    HUGS! I missed you!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You know...I think maybe I can see myself in this comment. I'm passionate about a lot of things. I just don't commit to any of them, so it feels like I'm passionate about nothing. As for writing a story about my vacuum, I'm not sure what the arc would be. I lost it. But then I found it. Sitting in the middle of the basement. Which means that I walked past it twice and didn't see it. Duh.

      Delete
  7. I haven't blogged in over a week now. Yours are much more elaborate so it make sence that you would have to take more time and creativity to prepare. I have no excuse. I have a RANDOM blog so I could post anything but I haven't. :P

    As for passion... I understand where you are coming from. Totally. Last year around this time my hubby and I were in the same boat. We had good jobs, great friends and nice apartment... but something was missing. Which is why we are now moving to the Philippines. So be careful what you wish for!

    That is also maybe part of why I haven't been blogging as much; we've been busy! We have to raise our own support to go out there so we've had some speaking events to prepare for. We have a major one this weekend, another one next weekend, plus some evening stuff... We can't wait to quit our jobs! End of June!!!

    I think I am being vague but it is on purpose. I could tell you what we will be doing but then I'd have to kill you. :P Ok, maybe not, but my hubby is paranoid about us getting red flagged for international travel.

    You will find your passion. You can still change the world. I believe in you. Try scuba.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I'm looking forward to learning more about what you end up doing in the Philippines! I'd love to go to the Philippines someday, but - to be honest - there are a lot of other places that are higher on our list right now. Anyway, it's very exciting that you're dropping out of your current lives to try something new. That takes guts!

      Delete
  8. I'm having the exact same crisis. I suddenly (okay, not suddenly, but suddenly more strongly) feel the need to actually DO something with my life. But, of course, have nary an idea what that something should be...

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think that's what it is: the need to DO something. If you figure yours out, let me know. I'll probably just be lazy and steal your purpose.

      Delete
  9. Glad to have a post from you! This is only my second one since following you so I didn't realize that this long of a silence was unusual.

    As to your question... in my case it would be more suitable to try and think of anything that I'm not passionate about lol... My whole life seems to be on overdrive - I guess it will eventually slow down but for now I'm still going strong.

    Sorry about losing the vacuum cleaner... and do hope that everything sorts out for you so that you can come back to blogging and feel funny again :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I usually do post about once a week. And I have every intention to get back to that. I love your attitude...maybe that's what it comes down to: attitude and commitment. There are actually lots of things that I care deeply about. I just have to commit and spend some time on them!

      Delete
  10. It seems like just about everyone is in some sort of blog funk.

    I have learned that there is value in the mundane. Hanging out, being boring, doing laundry, eating popsicles - this is what makes the world go 'round, friend.

    Relax, it all comes back around.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. "There is value in the mundane" <-- If I were the cross-stitching sort, I think I'd make that and hang it in my living room.

      Delete
  11. Losing a vacuum really sucks.

    It must be something going around. I'm feeling the very opposite of funny lately, too. Then again, I use all my good puns on comments on my friends' blogs. Go figure.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oh, I've been in a commenting funk too. Reading, but rarely leaving my mark. Hope our blogging mojo comes back soon, for both of us!

      Delete
  12. I'm passionate about fat activism, and apparently the actual meaning of words as I was reminded this morning by my friend who likes to use words wrong and then calls me a word nazi for informing him that the word he is using in a medical way does not mean that when phrased in a medical way so he can't say he is concerned about having hallucinations when hallucinations doesn't mean what he thinks it means!

    Sorry. Yeah. I'm in a blarg funk too. But I would rather put out good stuff now then just post to post.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think I'm maybe passionate about run-on sentences, because I really really liked yours. And you're right...better to not post at all than to put up something lame.

      Delete
  13. Maybe it would help to look upon all the things you have already accomplished? Find something that you are proud of and focus on that. Don't worry so much about what you haven't done or aren't passionate about. Why do we always have to be passionate? Why can't we just enjoy our lives for what they are? (Just wondering, not trying to make a statement or anything.)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You know, you're so right. Why is being passionate more important to me than being content? The second is a lot more satisfying than the first. THanks for the food for thought.

      Delete
  14. Missed ya! I really dig gardening (see what I just did there?) But then my mid summer I get sick of looking at the weeds so I look forward to next year when I tell myself that I'll keep up with the weeds then. I'm pretty passionate about weekends too, and lists, but then I just never live up to my expectations. Since my career pretty much sucks the life out of me I've really been taking it day by day and am happy with that.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Nicely played pun. I think I was inspired by your comment, because the very next day I planted stuff! I just planted them in flower boxes though, because I passionately hate weeding.

      Delete
  15. Thank you for the wheelbarrow! Unlike you, I actually have piles of stuff behind which a vacuum cleaner could hide. Although I do know where mine is, there's too much stuff around to actually use it. With my newly gifted clay wheelbarrow, I can now start the process which will lead me to get all of this crap out of here! It is a gift more appreciated than you can imagine! ;-)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Ha! I'm so glad that I was able to help. Maybe that's my calling: to make clay wheelbarrows for people with cluttered houses.

      Delete
  16. I will gladly use a clay wheelbarrow--the real ones look like way too much work!
    I get the funky funks too. I think it's good to walk the dog, read, hang with hub, etc. Maybe you need to do more of the favorite things to get rid of the funk?
    By the way I think your blog is super unique and funny--just saying.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Coleen! I'm actually not in a life funk anymore. But I'm still kind of in a blog funk. Can't win 'em all!

      Delete
  17. LOVE the wheelbarrow. Sorry about the identity crisis.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. For some reason this comment cracked me up. Does Hallmark sell cards for that?

      Delete
  18. I've been accused of having the opposite problem - I'm overly passionate about the "big ideas" in life and need to pay more attention to the daily mundanities lol.

    I'm passionate about finding true love, even though "they" all say you should stop looking and it will come to you. Yeah right! That'll leave me single and alone forever! sigh

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think that you might like this blog (funny, well-written, by a girl searching for true love):

      http://haveyougotyourselfaboyfriendyet.blogspot.ca/

      Delete
  19. I knew you were still alive as I saw you on the twitterverse! I am glad to see that you will be posting again soon! We missed you! :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I am, indeed, alive! And also in a much better mood. But still in a bit of a blog funk.

      Delete
  20. Some vacuums just decide they want to live in another closet. Good luck with your musings. I actually thing it's ok to be content with day to day life ;)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Most of the time, I think so too. :) And luckily, I found the vaccuum cleaner.

      Delete
  21. I am passionate about nothing...unless you count my neuroses. That's the only kind of thing I get fired up about. I'm passionate about not being late. I'm passionate when my boss/husband/random strangers do something that is clearly unfair, but there's not a damn thing I can do about it. In essence, I get fired up about stuff I can't do anything about. Does that count?

    Actually, I enjoy being fairly content with my life...

    I do hate it when I lose large things that should be very obvious.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think it counts! Ha! I, too, generally enjoy being content with my life. It's not an ongoing identity crisis, it comes and goes. ;)

      Delete
  22. So Miss Stephanie you want to change the world Mmmmmmmm. That sadly is not possible. the wheels are large and turn and very few people can change anything. I have tried to put a very small stick in the cogs but it got mashed to bits and stopped nothing.

    And in the great scheme of time, the universe and everything we are but the flicker of a flame, so be a happy flame and do what you are happy doing in your heart and soul. Deep down in the the depths of the madness of my blog lies an obscure message of morality truth honesty and my delusions of being Don Quixote in cyberspace tilting at commercialism and the ways of capitalist society, all to no avail but I enjoy my blog and it is a way to give a very very small message (generally lost in the chaos of the story, well sort of story)

    Anyway this wheelbarrow I feel represents your mind, full of dreams and as we know a full wheelbarrow can get heavy and we need to put it down (Vacuum cleaners are just the same). But after a bit, once rested we can take our wheelbarrow and its contents and take them to the bottom of the garden and empty it on the compost heap............AH hang on that went wrong at the end there, DAMN

    If you are good and come back blogging all chirpy and happy and maybe tilting at the odd windmill I will let you join the very elite R.A.Ts (it is a great honour, well sort of, ish, a bit)

    Take care hope to see you back blogging, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but sooooooon at a blog near you....

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. This is such a lovely comment Rob. Thanks for taking the time. And you're right...changing the world is an awfully big weight to pick up. Better to just be happy!

      Delete
  23. Hope you found the vacuum cleaner by now!! Too funny about losing it? In a closet perhaps? Under the bed? I know what you mean about passionate about things. Passionate about God for me.

    Enjoy the blogging break; I sometimes think we get too consumed with them all in all; surfing the net is always fun to do!

    betty

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oh, I found it. In the middle of the basement. Nothing better than walking right by the thing you're looking for!

      Delete
  24. i've been passionate about reading all my life. books and blogs mostly now. also, i've discovered at the ripe old age of 36 that i'm totally intrigued by yoga and i want to do it all the time. i always thought those yoga people were weird, but now i get it. go figure.
    i hope you find your passion. maybe it's just in the everyday things. nothing wrong with that.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks for sharing! I'm also passionate about reading. I also love to write, and I'd love to translate that into "passionate about writing novels". But it turns out that I'm also kind of lazy. Ha!

      Delete
  25. I want to lose my vaccum.

    Bigger is right around the corner. Trust me. (;

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Bigger...as in book cover bigger? You're RIGHT! And I found the vaccuum cleaner.

      Delete
  26. Honestly? I have lost my vacuum cleaner more than once.i tried to sit back. And enjoy the excuse, but then the dust bunnies threatened mutiny! I am passionate abut writing...I think!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. "I think" is what follows most of my musings about what I'm passionate about! Losing the vaccuum cleaner is dangerous in this house, where a person could get lost in the dog hair drifts after a few days. Luckily, I found it!

      Delete
  27. I am passionate about cutting peacock feathers out of scrap-booking paper and making giant angel wings with them to tape to my wall.
    I'm passionate about gluing leather birds to my upholstered chair.
    I'm passionate about the giant tree i just painted in siegfried's room.

    I want my whole life to LOOK interesting. To me. So far that's about all I've managed to accomplish.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. This is such a cool comment. I think life looking interesting is such a fascinating goal! Big accomplishment, I'd day.

      Delete
  28. This is so funny! I have been feeling the same way and been getting emails as well. I need to catch a breath. Love the wheelbarrow!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Maybe it's a breath I need. To be honest, sometimes I get overwhelmed by the blogging. Well, not the blogging itself, but the responding to comments and visiting blogs. I enjoy it, but it's so time-consuming.

      Delete
  29. For me, meaning ebbs and flows. Sometimes I don't even want to cook or do laundry. Sometimes, I want to change the world. It's been a year of the former ... I'm hoping that the latter will kick in soon. (I guess I *am* passionate about local eating and supporting your local farmer ... does that translate to a career?)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think that local eating is a wonderful thing to be passionate about. It's something that I'd like to be passionate about...but I don't really commit. That's kind of my issue with a lot of things that might be important to me. (Oh, and I NEVER want to do laundry. Don't worry about that.)

      Delete
  30. Thank goodness you're okay! I've been waiting to see your name in another "Zombie" headline lol. Honestly, I know claymation takes forever but I see you getting your fame & fortune in a Zombie claymation movie. Kinda like "Sean of the Dead" meets "Wallace & Gromit" :)
    Ashley S

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. WOW. That would be incredible!
      Your clay models must be your passion! You spend so much time on them just to add to your stories! Without them, this blog wouldn't be what it is! But you don't have to be funny all the time. Sometimes we like to read about people's inner thoughts about life and their experiences.
      M. x

      Delete
    2. I don't know if clay is a "passion", but it's definitely fun. As for claymation...I've thought about it. But it's kind of beyond my skillset. Maybe someday!

      Delete
  31. You're well on your way to doing something bigger in your life if you've lost your vacuum cleaner.
    I'm so glad you're still here. Your blog makes us smile :) <- see. But you don't have to be funny, a post about what you're thinking about life would touch us in other bones than the funny sort.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I guess the main reason I don't do serious posts is because it would feel silly to illustrate serious things with clay. But maybe it is time to expand my focus a little bit!

      Delete
  32. Hi Stephanie,

    I think your passion is your clay people and your telling stories and your husband and your job. Those are good things to be passionate about.

    I am passionate about writing. And interior design. And my family. Maybe not in that order. Oh and chocolate and wine (maybe those 2 should be first on the list). I wish I was passionate about working out and being in shape. I need more time for that kind of passion.

    As for the "misplaced" vaccuum (is anything really ever "lost"?) -- I lost my big expenisve plug-in pencil sharpener. The kind that makes your pencils into weapons. This is very distressing, because where could it have gone? it's not like you say, "Hey, you know what I need in the backyard for a few minutes-- the electric pencil sharpener! yeah, I'll just take it outside with me. I hope I remember to bring it back in later, I might need it in the dining room! or laundry room!" I have been thinking about writing a post about it. Maybe I will. :)

    xxo
    MOV

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I found it! It was hiding in plain sight in the basement. Very sneaky. I'm not sure that I would call the clay a "passion". But you're right...storytelling and writing definitely are. The clay is the medium for the stories.

      Delete
  33. thanks for the update, stephanie! i figured you were not feeling all that creative, or were super busy or writing your novel...anyway, good to catch up a bit!
    hope you find the vac?!!
    i am passionate about my work, my hobbies and seeing my little nieces as much as possible. there is absolutely nothing wrong with being passionate about reading and dog walking etc if that is how you are feeling right now! the wheelbarrow represents the receptacle for any questioning thoughts you are having - dump 'em in and push 'em outta your life! :D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I wish I could see my little nieces more often! Honestly, I get into these musing moods when I have too much alone time...husband was away and family lives so far. But now things are good again!

      Delete
  34. Hope you found your vacuum! :)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I did! It was hiding in plain sight in the middle of the basement.

      Delete
  35. Your vacuum cleaner plight makes me feel better. There has been a blender at large in my house for over 2 years now. I keep putting off replacing it because I KNOW IT'S IN HERE SOMEWHERE!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Blenders are small. That thing could be ANYWHERE. I found my vaccuum cleaner in the basement. I don't think I would be able to put off replacing it if it stayed lost for 2 years.

      Delete
  36. I've missed your posts!!!! I think it's cool that you're thinking about the big things even if you haven't figured everything out yet. (Who has?) I'm very passionate about writing, my kids and good food.

    I have lost two plastic totes with my kids' artwork in them. I cleaned out my closet and got irritated that they were taking up space. I moved them somewhere in the house and have not found them for three months. Three months! I know they are in the house somewhere, and yet... neither my husband nor I can find them. It's saddening and really lame.

    Do you have a vacuum bandit on the loose in your town, by chance?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. If there's a vaccuum bandit, it decided to bring it back and leave it in the middle of the basement. I hope you find those totes! Maybe you'll find them years from now, when you're having a grumpy day, and they'll fill you with joy.

      Delete
  37. I just wanted to let you know that I've awarded you with the Kreative Blogger Award (even though you only really do story posts). If you want to "pick it up" anyways, you can stop by my post here: http://when-a-lion-sleeps.blogspot.com/2012/06/we-interrupt-guest-post-saturday.html (=

    ReplyDelete
  38. I needed a clay wheelbarrow to haul off that vacuum I borrowed..he he he.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Very cagey. I'll be keeping an eye on you.

      Delete
    2. Chuck, I seem to be blocked from commenting on your blog. Should i take that personally? Ha!

      Delete
  39. You didn't lose your vacuum cleaner. It was stolen.

    Come back soon, and have fun while you are away.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. And then the thief brought it back and left it in the middle of the basement, just to mess with me.

      Delete
  40. I'm passionate about writing. I know it sounds like a bit of a cliche but I really am! All the time I'm desperately wanting to write a book or a short story or anything, but there always seems to be something in the way! No worries, my gap year is reserved for writing! My dream is to see my book on a shelf in a book shop. I don't particularly care if it makes it big (of course, I would love to!) but just to see it on that shelf - to think that people are reading and liking my words - would just be incredible! So yeah, that is my passion! Maybe your passion is to make people laugh or feel happy? This blog certainly achieves that for a lot of people!
    x

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. P.S. A while ago I tried to send you an award for being the funniest blog, but being relatively ignorant about the techno side to blogging, I couldn't (and still can't) work out how to do it...so, although there is no pretty picture to go with it, here it is:

      To Stephanie at Clay Baboons,
      You're blog is the most hilarious blog there ever was and I love it to no end!
      I present you with the "funniest blog" award because you really deserve it and because you have successfully managed to make me laugh hysterically to myself many a time! I love that I can re-read your posts and snort with laughter even when I know what's coming.
      You are an inspiration to ignorant bloggers like me.
      M. x.

      :)

      Delete
    2. Thank you so much for the sweet comment! I don't even have an acceptance speech prepared. Ha! I hope that your writing is going well and that your book is coming along.

      Delete
  41. We lost a glass once, it turned up in the freezer - have you checked to see if your hoover is there? I sometimes worry that I'm not all about something bigger too, but I'm happy and I'd rather die happy and meaningless that stressed out and full of the greater good!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. The FREEZER! Why didn't I think of that? Ha!

      Delete
  42. I was wondering where you were! I am glad all is well. I hear you though, sometimes I have days where I just don't feel funny or inspired. Today is one of them actually. But it is A-okay, breaks are good!

    I am pretty passionate about books. And food, obviously.

    Hope you found the vacuum cleaner!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I'm also passionate about books. And food. In fact, most of the things that I'm passionate about involve consumption. I'd like to be a creator too! And yes, I did find the vacuum cleaner. In the middle of the basement.

      Delete
  43. I'm passionate about Jesus and telling others about Him. I'm not passionate about eating, in fact it's relatively low on my list of priorities. I'll gladly sacrifice eating funds so I can spend them on books. There are also certain songs I'm passionate about that I listen to as little as possible. Like Grizzly Bear's song "Knife." I like it so much that I don't want to listen to it. It's more magical when I keep it at arm's length. Perhaps I'm scared of it getting old.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Interesting thought process on your favourite songs. I'm likely to listen to a song over and over again until I love it just a little bit less. You save yours. I like that idea.

      Delete
  44. We're glad to hear you're doing well, and hey, if people e-mailed you to make sure you were okay, that must mean you're doing something right, right?

    Also, I TOTALLY get your metaphor. It's about life.

    (I don't, I just wanted to sound smart...)

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. True that. And you sounded very, very smart. Well done.

      Delete
  45. I have those thoughts sometimes - that my life has little purpose if I don't leave something Big and Important and Tangible behind. I guess my kids would be offended that they don't fit into that category, but let's face it - any jerk can have kids. Then I wonder if I used to be passionate about stuff, but never went after it because I was afraid of failing. Then I wonder if really, really liking something even counts as an important passion - it's still not always something that produces World Change.
    Dang, now you got me thinking - and I was going to go take a nap.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. "Then I wonder if I used to be passionate about stuff, but never went after it because I was afraid of failing" <-- I think that's maybe me. And I'm sorry for making you think. ;)

      Delete
  46. Phew, glad to hear you're not quitting blogging!
    hmm, I'm passionate about travelling. I love the idea of seeing different cultures and meeting many different people and experiencing their life.

    I'm sure whatever it is you're passionate about will come to you eventually :) There's nothing to panic about if you're not sure what it is at the moment!
    Patience is a virtue, and the thing that you're looking for, usually finds you itself when you stop looking :D

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Patience is a virtue: most-hated expression for impatient people. Haha! I love the idea of travelling, but haven't gone on a trip in ages. Maybe soon!

      Delete
  47. Glad you're ok, is it bad that we assume if we're not all blogging we're not ok? My passion comes and goes. I could say I'm passionate about my work and my family but I also love reading and cooking and even doing nothing. I don't think it all has to be so big. I think by making us smile, by taking about turning off appliances you are changing the world.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thanks Lauren! Most of the time I'm quite happy being content and enjoying life. Sometimes I fall into existential funks. But I'm back to my normal self now! I just haven't gotten around to blog-making lately.

      Delete
  48. The wheelbarrow is much appreciated! I was wondering where you'd gone to!
    I think getting "passionate" is not an easy task, and sometimes we get so lost in ourselves that we forget about being passionate about anything.
    I know that happens to me often.
    I think the best thing you can do is not to expect anything from yourself. Pressure to be passionate about something usually results in being passionate about feeling guilty for not being passionate. Go easy, do what you love if you can. If you can't, do the closest thing you can find.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. This made me laugh: "results in being passionate about feeling guilty for not being passionate". So true and so insightful! I'm generally quite good at doing what I love. It's just that sometimes I let the other stuff go too long, and then I get frustrated and annoyed and slip into an existential crisis. But it's all good now!

      Delete
  49. Glad to see you're okay (I wondered).
    Hmm...the passionate question is hard to answer in some ways. Are there things I care about more than the things I spend time doing. Sure...and I'd like to spend more time on those things I care about, but the other stuff is what enables me to have some "things I care about time"
    Oblique enough for you?

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Actually, that makes a lot of sense! And having to work for the things that we love (or the time to do them)...well, that just makes the things we love more special.

      Delete
  50. I've been having similar feelings lately, and it has been affecting my blogging a bit too. It never seems worth it to "fake it" if I'm not in the mood. I think it might be a seasonal change thing.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Might be! Come to think of it, I quit blogging last year for the month of May/June as well. I guess life gets in the way sometimes!

      Delete
  51. I love my writing. I'm passionate about my music!!
    Nothing wrong with reading books and walking the dog and hanging with hubby...

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. You know what...you're right. And on a sunny day like today, I'm 100% convinced.

      Delete
  52. Very intresting and lovely blog!

    What do u say about following each others blog on Gfc and bloglovin just to stay in contact this way?

    Lots of love,

    www.nicoleta.me

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Sorry Nicoleta...I don't use GFC to follow blogs. But if you comment here, I'll always make an effort to visit back. Cheers!

      Delete
  53. I was right there with you. After a recent trip to Japan I was having panic attacks about what I'm doing with my life and how there are tons of people who have accomplished huge things that are way younger than me and I've already lost that time and I need to do something RIGHT NOW BECAUSE I'M STILL WASTING TIME...
    And then I went back to work and was pleasantly distracted from my frantic thoughts.

    I'm not really passionate about anything, but I do have a few things that I want to do (finish that book I started, make flagrat YouTube videos that will make me famous overnight, etc) and that's enough to drive me.

    I hope you shake off this funk soon!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think I need to shift my thinking to align more with yours: "things I want to do" instead of "things I'm passionate about". The first is much less panic-inducing than the second!

      Delete
  54. The passion question is too depressing for me... So, I'll try the vacuum issue. I know where mine is, but haven't used it in forever, because its storage cupboard is piled high with too many boxes with no other place to go.
    Did you lend yours to someone and then forget? Or did your husband lend it out? Did you schlep it to the garage to vacuum the car & forget to look there? Do you have a basement where you might have used it to clean up spilled detergent powder? Or, the advice I always give my kids [now adults, who still lose things], try to remember the last time you used it. What time of day was it? What room was the last room you vacuumed? Go through the steps in your mind. Did you get interrupted by a phone call or someone at the door? Do you usually keep it in a spare room that was being used for company & had to store it somewhere else? I guess I sound either very nosy or very obsessed. Or a little bit of both. Between me and the live-at-home sons, we lose a lot of stuff, most of it much smaller than a vacuum, so I'm used to playing 20 questions all around. Bonne chance et bon courage!

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Oooh...you should be a detective! In the end I found it. It was hiding in plain sight in the middle of the basement. Cagey.

      Delete
  55. Well Miss Stephanie. that is a lot of responses to a Wheelbarrow and a vacuum cleaner and says much of the worth of your blog.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I'm constantly surprised by how many people take the time out of their day to comment.

      Delete
  56. I am passionate about childcare, unfortunately since discovering it is going to be a challenge to create my own children my passion has begun to torture me. I used to be passionate about the theatre and so I am trying to rekindle that passion. It is safer and less painful. I will get back to trying to change the world of childcare later, when I have some rugrats to practice on.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I think that might be part of the problem. For the past few years, I've been "on hold" because I keep expecting to get pregnant. But now I'm starting to think that I need a back-up plan. I can't keep waiting for something that might not happen.

      Delete
  57. I'm passionate about writing, roller derby, and Star Wars. The order varies depending on the day.
    Sorry it took so long to comment- for some reason the comment box was just showing the post and I couldn't write anything for about a week. True weirdness. Glad to see you're still kicking it. Miss you!

    ReplyDelete
  58. I completely understand your dilemma. Sometimes my posts have some time between them because I don't feel that anything has happened in my life that I need to blog about. Or, even worse, something funny has happened... but when I try to turn it into a post, I can't figure out how to portray the funny-ness.

    Have you found your vacuum yet? I burst out laughing when I read that you had lost that. Of all things. Not something small.

    As for what I'm passionate about- animals. I wish I had a gabillion dollars that I could donate to animal charities and help every animal I see. I currently have 9 critters and would have so many more if I could.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. I love animals too. I would love to get more involved in animal care. Something to think about! And yes, I found the vacuum cleaner. It was hiding in the middle of the basement. oh well.

      Delete
  59. I think it's unfair to say you're not changing the world. You never know what acts you find insignificant that change people's lives. Besides, you give us all something to laugh about when we check in. A laugh is precious on a bad day, trust me.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Emily, this is such a nice comment. I think you're right...the big stuff isn't necessarily bigger than the small stuff. (That made sense in my brain...re-reading it, I'm not so sure.)

      Delete
  60. This is the same crisis I am in myself right now and the day doesn't seem to have enough hours and the world doesn't seem to have enough patient people to let me figure it out... I feel your pain sister! Chin up and all that, Love Elle xo

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. My day actually has a lot of hours. I just don't USE them properly. Here's hoping we both figure things out!

      Delete
  61. I think it's a good thing that you even notice this. Many people glide through life without a thought as to what they may or may not be contributing. I have no doubts that you will find ways to make an impact.

    You could be passionate about me, as I am 'bigger'. =}

    ReplyDelete
  62. I just found you and while your past posts rock, this one really hit home. I've been having so much trouble accessing my funny bone lately...but I keep going on, confident it will all of a sudden jump back into my life, apologizing for it's unexpected trip to the Bahama's without me. :p I can't wait until your funny comes back...because I know it will!!!

    Princess WeeWee

    ReplyDelete
  63. I'm passionate about that wheelbarrow. I bet you it's a metaphor for passion!

    BRAIN BLAST!!! Passion is wheelbarrow. Wheelbarrow is passion. Acquire more wheelbarrow and all passion problems are solved. You're welcome.

    ReplyDelete
  64. Hey, just feel better. I certainly feel the same way as you on a monthly basis. Although recently it has been daily.

    I am passionate about writing. Sometimes. Other times I am passionate about sleeping.

    ReplyDelete
  65. I know exactly what you mean, your blog really, really strikes a chord with me. I had that exact same feeling for ages - like everyone else seems to have a passion whether it's football or saving orangutans or eating as much cake as possible. I think it's ok to just 'be' though. And the other people commenting are right, you make me laugh and you make me think, and that is a valuable and precious talent. I love your blog and so I've nominated you at mine for the Versatile Blogger Award - you don't have to take part if you don't want to, but I just wanted to include you in my links :-)

    ReplyDelete
  66. I think so many people feel that! If you're happy you're happy. What is wrong with "just" being passionate about your friends and family, and the little things? I don't know but maybe this worry about the bigger things is related to frustrations you've experienced deeply and personally about children (which I am totally projecting on because I feel that). Anyway, hugs to you. Come back to us. We love you. We share your blah.

    ReplyDelete
  67. LOOK AT ALL THIS LOVE!!

    What a deluge of comments, Steph. I'm thrilled to see it. :)

    In my 20s I really believed that my passion was going to be something I spent the rest of my life doing: motherhood, my career, volunteering for Greenpeace, finding a cure for cancer etc etc.

    Now, in my mid 30s, I'm starting to think that my passion isn't some big grand adventure but instead a tiny little moment in time. THIS moment. I feel passionate and ALIVE and connected when I am breathing, in this moment, with my eyes open to the life around me. It will take me a lifetime to put many of these moments together. In a row.

    But that kind of passion? Feels pretty great and requires no training or preparation. :)

    ReplyDelete
  68. I'm lost on your vacuum dilemma. I'd be curious to know where you find it.

    As for your question, I also feel that I lack any outside passion. Actually, it's more that I lack the financial ability to persue things that I am passionate about, like traveling around the world.

    ReplyDelete
  69. A metaphor... hmm, nope. Caa't think of anything. But it is quite a nice wheelbarrow.

    I definately understand about the whole, "I just don't feel very funny" thing. Some days you think you're hilarious, others you just ain't.

    ReplyDelete
  70. My husband loves the Mets, and soccer, and computers, and has a gazillion hobbies about which he would say he is passionate. Sometimes I feel quite drab and dull next to him because um...I like to cook (sometimes), I like exercising (sort of - more like I like having exercised), I like...well, I like stuff but I don't feel passionate about much. Sometimes blogging feels like pushing an empty wheelbarrow (to borrow your visual): lumbering, awkward, bumpy, kind of stupid. Sometimes it's filled with gorgeous vegetables and fruits (in my fantasy, I have a green thumb & grew everything), and it trundles along beautifully. Eh. Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don't; sometimes the funny comes in, sometimes it doesn't. The well needs to get refilled & that takes time.

    ReplyDelete
  71. Ah...passion. I'd have to say I'm passionate about everything: the little bits of everyday that add up to a blessed and joyful life. I'm passionate about my husband and my family. I'm passionate about potato chips and sweet wine.

    Please stop around my place and pick up your Inspirational Blogger award! http://contemplatinghappiness.blogspot.com/2012/06/bloggy-love.html

    ReplyDelete
  72. I could go on and on with a comment about how much I understand where you are coming from,and how I honestly have felt that on and off this past year. But it would be a really, reeeeaaaaalllllyyyy looooonnnnnnggggg comment.So, well, you get my point!
    I will be here waiting. :)

    ReplyDelete
  73. I've been pretty bankrupt for hilarious ideas myself. *hugs*

    -Barb the French Bean

    ReplyDelete
  74. My husband says I'm passionate about anything I choose to care about, but I don't always see it that way. I just think I have strong opinions. I'd like to say I'm passionate about animal rescue, but I'm not sure I actually do enough to really be called "passionate". I'm not sure how much is enough, but I think it's more than what I do.

    ReplyDelete